It has been so hard to stay focused with all that has been going on lately. The kids are back and in school. That means I am up earlier in the mornings and off to work earlier. Then it is picking them up and making sure homework is done and that they are fed, showered and in bed by 9. This morning was a mission. Niah complaining about her shoes not fitting properly. This is normally what happens when she doesn't want to wear the shoes I pick out. 10 minutes of whining. That is so annoying. But I felt bad for yelling at her cause when we were walking to school she told me sorry for whining. "Sorry for whining Mommy," in that squeaky little voice that melts my heart. She really is such a sweet baby. Nayshawn is trying to get use to having to wait for her in the mornings. This morning he walked off and left her. I can understand his frustrations having two younger brothers myself.
I still can't understand, when I look at Nayshawn he seems to be growing so fast. When I look at Niah she is getting older but seems so little. I guess that is the result of being a preemie or is it all just in my head? The bottom line is my babies are getting bigger and it is so bitter-sweet for me.
I have been feeling like I am moving a warp speed. So last night I slowed it down a bit and did two layouts. Both with some really bright colors to help make me smile.